This article about Kim France, editor in chief of Lucky Magazine, is worth reading. It’s also worth (re)reading. For me, especially now.
In the article France says–after stress and headaches made her leave work–“I was surprisingly comfortable with being unemployed (…) I didn’t really feel like I knew what I wanted to do next and I waited until there was a moment when I could do something that really felt right.”
It’s a privilege to be able to wait and seek out what feels right. Of course, that goes without saying. It’s also a privilege to even be able to “feel right.” But the article goes on to discuss feeling comfortable as a writer again because she’s writing about what she wants to write about and she’s found an audience for that writing.
I do think the article doesn’t discuss that second value: having the audience for your writing. It matters that you fall into someone’s ear.
I’ve been starting over too…writing against elliptical and poetic style to see WHAT ELSE that kind of writing can bend toward. I’ve been writing children’s stories, fiction, and a few essays. And while they haven’t found an ideal reader yet, I have to say that writing what isn’t easy, what doesn’t come naturally, has been worth it for me. It makes me wonder about what feels right and what it means to also try what doesn’t feel right.
In my father’s last letter he said, “You can get around a mountain by going around it or you can just climb it. Sure, going around is easier.” He doesn’t wrap up the idea by saying climbing is better, he just implies that up has something else that isn’t “easy.” He’s a smart dude.
In the mail, I received three lovely copies of Midas Eyes.